Tipping the scales

Today i woke up feeling sluggish.  Not really wanting to go to work after the long weekend.  Just really wanting to turn over and go back to sleep.  I almost didnt even recognize my alarm lol.  Today is my day to workout in the morning so i got dressed for that and once i was dressed i looked at myself in the mirror and to my surprise i actually looked smaller, different.  I was in some workout clothes i hadnt put on in a while so some of the changes were finally noticable.  Today is also the day i weigh myself. I am proud to say i have finally got over the 20lb mark.  i am now 21 lbs lighter, which makes me 225.  I was estatic! I had been hovering very close to the 20lb mark for around a month and it was very discouraging.

Honestly i really hadnt felt like i accomplished much up till this point. I just had this idea in my mind that anything less than 20lbs was nothing or not really a big deal. although my trainer and others who continued to encourage me (thanks btw) said otherwise, it just still didnt seem like much.  maybe 20lbs just sounds substantial.  I feel like i have accomplished something now, like all this working out isnt for nothing.  It gives me the motivation to keep on going. i was really considering just giving up cause i hadnt made any progress during the month of august, just maintained.  but a friend told me the other day that since i was changing my lifestyle as opposed to doing just a fad diet or pills that it will take time.  this of course i knew but it was something i needed to hear and then my weightloss since last weigh in just provided confirmation that i can do this and reach my final goal.

So i continue to press on ....

(Aint) Too Proud to beg

In the last few months i have come to realize i dont manage my money as well as i thought i did.  Especially here recently, i always feel like i am just barely making it by. I rob peter to pay paul and have a hard time giving peter his money back.

But i have also realized i am one prideful young lady.  I would rather suffer than ask for help.  rather pay out more in the long run than just simply say "can you help me".  My fear of rejection, the word 'no', cripples me in the simplest of situations.  I dont like the vulnerablity of asking someone to help me. But the reality is you need people to make it in this life.  You will always need someones help one way or another and sometimes you may not get that help if you dont ask for it.

After last week i decided to take control of my finances. I cant continue to live life with this sort of disregard for my financial future.  i am enforcing a budget. I am downsizing my living arrangements in the near future. I am setting some goals for myself in the monetray rim of my life. and lastly i will work on my prideful ways.

The Beginning

So this is your introduction to me.  If you are reading this then you probably already know me. If you dont, wanna hear it, here it go.... I am 26 originally from NC. I have been in the DC metro area for 3 years now and it had definitely been an adjustment to say the least.  I am a pretty fun loving kinda gal. 

In this blog i intend to share basically whatever comes to mind. Im making alot of changes in my life so you will travel through those changes with me.  One of my changes is to lose weight.  I have been exercising for about 3 months now and i started at 246 and now i weight 227, so im down 19lbs.  My goal is to lose 50lbs. There are a number of other things i will be working on/changing in my life.

I do have a little issue with figuring out what i want to share cause i am very very private so this will be and interesting process.

hope you enjoy reading.